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20.05.2020 In the book "Herzlicht" ("heart light"), the lesson of the day was about past lives, but MY session wasn't. No worries! A bit stranger is that today was the first time I didn't take notes at all (although everything was inside my reach). Instead, I talked to Tiran, the Elven king, alone for the first time. Suddenly I was standing in his castle and only he was sitting on his throne. He was in a very strange mood! While others usually shower me with information, he was very quiet. He made strange remarks about how yesterday had been "his" day and "the other one" had brazenly pushed their way in. I was already deeply absorbed - perhaps a little too deeply, because I almost dozed off a couple of times. As I said, he didn't really explain anything, but I don't think that's a bad thing. As far as I can tell, I got my connection today, and that's important to me. And I put my feet up and tried to channel, which is even more important. Maybe he'll be in a better mood tomorrow... Besides, I can't help but notice that, even on the other side, one can simply have a bad day! Also, I find that, after very extensive sessions (like the one yesterday), there is a kind of recovery phase where not much will happen. That's nice, too! After all, I'm only human!

21.05.2020 Today it happened for the first time: I didn't get any message at all. At least not from the Elves... I laid down as always, and I guess I got a general connection. But NOBODY was on the plane of the Elves! At first, I was worried (am I doing something wrong?) but at some point, I remembered the words of the nameless entity that I had met a few days ago and mentally traveled to the border between the morphic field and the universe. And in contrast to the elven plane, there was definitely someone there! The entity seemed quite amused and said: »Well, they (the Elves) told you, they are not always there. Being in such a low frequency is like painstakingly sitting in a nursery and spoonfeeding your offspring. It does take a toll on you. Yes, it’s a labour of love, but you can get exhausted. So why would they sit there if you’re late?« [Here the entity was unfortunately right, I was actually an hour later than usual. But the comparison with a helpless baby still stings!]

22.05.2020 Today I fell asleep for the first time while relaxing. Oops! In my defense, I have to say that I was definitely on the elven plain for a few minutes and I know I extended my invitation. ("What is there to learn today? What do I need to know today?"). At some point, my husband woke me up because he gave me a quick cuddle. It's interesting how he arrives at EXACTLY the right moment sometimes. He's much more attached to "the ones up there" than he (and I) would like to admit. The only real impulse today came in the form of a strong feeling without audio, urging me: "Write a little more on the story today. It's the right time to do it." I think I can do that! [In the coming months, my interview partners talked A LOT about "windows of opportunity" on energetic levels. It's such a natural concept, once you understand it!] PS: Yesterday, we watched the film "The Neverending Story" with our son. The implications in it are quite heavy if you consider the energetic messages of story worlds!

24.05.2020 Yesterday I didn't get a connection. Nothing. For the first time. But that's okay. I'm honestly already glad I'm not in a hospital. Because the day before yesterday something very strange happened. I pulled or tore something in my lower abdomen. I could hardly stand at the beginning and yesterday I couldn't walk well all day. Maybe an undiscovered cyst burst, I don't know. Anyway, it hurt like hell and I needed to heal first. Then today I went to Land's End in my head - an important English landmark in my novel - and asked for someone from the plains to come down to me. Prompt reply: "We can't. We can't come all the way down to earth. Energetically, it just doesn't work like that. You have to travel upwards mentally. The elven plane is already the kind of place where we meet you midways! To come back to the earth level as an ascended being, you have to incarnate, and you only do that for extremely important reasons!" (Jesus, Buddha) Then, when I was up there, I pursued the subject of energy levels a little further and asked why my current short novel "Ghomon & Gorgonn" is just not getting finished. It feels like it is fighting me! Answer: "There is a 'window of opportunity' for every task and that has closed for this story - for now!" I could work on the story, yes, but there's a distinct difference for the other side whether it flows or whether the characters have to wade through what feels like a swamp to advance the story. (It took them a while to come up with this analogy, by the way.) A little later we got to talking about why the thing with my stomach happened. "The pain is the inevitable proof that a major energetic shift has taken place in the last few days. It had to happen and we're very sorry that there was this pain connected to it." I have to say I am appeased now. I was really angry the last two days because I couldn't understand any of it - and I was scared of course. At the very end I went up to the atmosphere briefly - and this time some of my friends even came with me! Like little golden points of light, they surrounded me up there on the border of black space. It was so beautiful! I also tried to make myself a disembodied dot. But I guess my head (still) needs this physical representation of me. So what! Their closing statement was beautiful: "There's a good reason why people like fairy lights with golden dots so much. Because if you could see them like we do, you would see the many millions of souls who are currently in this state of consciousness around the Earth!" Unfortunately, I was not allowed to stay long. The order was, "Go write!" Okay, okay. I'm off already ... ;)

25.05.2020 Today I had to laugh out loud during channeling! :) I immediately met Felika, one of my newer novel characters, and since thought equals action in this world, I found myself on her couch in an instant. I joked that in the story world it is actually forbidden to teleport directly into elven houses, but she just grinned: "Well, other elves are forbidden. Not our chronicler." T: Oh, I'm happy there's someone here at all. After all, I've had some experience with that now. F: "We are not prisoners of the story. Here you have often thought too narrowly. We can very well disappear - like actors from a set." I don't remember exactly how the subject changed, but soon it was about my new job. Suddenly it occurred to me that their MUCH better regulations for working from home or from the road there could allow me to work for the clients while really not being home. Tears immediately welled up in my eyes! F: "You smell the freedom. That's why you're crying." Terrifying, but I feel it more and more. As I'm folding laundry, I catch myself thinking about clothes that would make it into my "world-traveling wardrobe" and the ones that I'd leave behind. A pretty clear indication that I want a life without the eternal 9-to-5 etc. (And who doesn't?) To all of this Felika said very forcefully, "Quit. The. Challenge. After the Challenge, everything will be different." Then we drifted back into our shared story. As usual, I teased her that all the characters in the book would get extended new scenes except little Tayrenn - the actual dragon child! The character why the book series is called "The Dragonchild"! Felika laughed and said, "Well, Teal is a dragon child, too! Feo, too." I had to laugh so heartily! And as if all this terrific info wasn't great enough, Felika added more - but sadly not happy news. "There will come a time when we - the voices you hear - will no longer take elven forms to tell you this story." Because she could sense my pulse skyrocketing, she quickly explained: "But we'll be there, don't worry! We came into this story point for you, and we will keep it going until the very last minute. But it has a preordained end. Making the story parts manifest has cost us a considerable amount of energy. We did it anyway. Will continue to do it. To continue to bring the story into your world - through you."

26.05.2020 Today was an extremely cool session for many reasons! 1) For the first time I spoke to Villem + Sinon on the topic of my current spin-off novel 'Ghomon + Gorgonn'. 2) I think I got the new job. Because my channeling was abruptly interrupted by the phone and the request to talk to the CEO of the new company tomorrow. :) But back to the challenge! Since the spontaneous "placement" had worked so well, I also said today: "I'll end up at exactly the place where I need to be today!" To my great surprise, that was the so-called "horse settlement", where one of my elven spies lives. He immediately said: "You wanted to know when and how our story 'Ghomon & Gorgonn' [Elvish for 'The Man & His Monster'] will finally continue. I can tell you, it could be ready in four weeks if you keep at it." [This means that the window of opportunity opens and flow could be possible.] T: Now that's a statement! I've been stuck in this spin-off for months now. I feel like this book is just against me. Villem was also kind enough to help me out with detailed scenes and plot points, of course. But I don't want to spoil anyone, so I can't post sentences that followed here. Sorry! ;)

27.05.2020 T: "Where on the Elven plain do I need to be today?" This thought is really worth its weight in gold. It gives up controlling thoughts on my part and makes all those things possible that I wouldn't directly wish for or imagine. That's how I ended up in front of Kell + Jenny's cabin for the first time today! They both pushed some new scene ideas at me, which was nice. [Spoiler removed.] It was all about "fiction" and stories today, less about me or the Elves. Since my son and I watched HOOK yesterday, we also talked briefly about all the clues in the world's most popular stories. In HOOK the basic theme is "don't grow up" and I distinctly remember a quote from Tinkerbell. At the end of the film, she says: "Do you know the place between sleeping and waking, when your dreams are still with you? That's where I'll love you forever. There I will wait for you, Peter Pan." Or the Childlike Empress from The Neverending Story, pleading with the reading boy, "Bastian ... SAY MY NAME!" The story points cannot do without us. People must make the story manifest - everybody in their own life! Encoded in the stories is the ACTUAL key to understanding the universe. How this subtle guidance from the spiritual world works and magic and divine providence. And by God, it's beautiful! At the beginning of the Challenge the Elves said that my life would not be the same afterward - and wow, are they springing into action now! The new job for example? Their comment was: "Good job. It will give you great new impulses. You'll develop yourself. All good." And quite honestly, if that hadn't been my intuition from the start, I wouldn't have done it. On the subject of manuscripts (it feels like the order of publication changes every week!) Kell said: "You can't write The last book with the Muse and "Love and the ant farm" in the most perfect way until "The Dragonchild" is finished! After all, we are constantly giving you additional information about how time, stories, the universe, and creative work! Only when all this information is put together into the finished puzzle can you continue to work with these basics." That's a long road ahead of me, but it's going to be great!

28.05.2020 Today I remembered that I wanted to ask something on behalf of my friend V.! And interestingly enough, I ended up in the garden of the Elven castle with Tiran. He represents the king in my novels. The garden is impeccably groomed and trimmed - like the gardens of Versailles etc. That seemed rather strange to me because Elves are usually very close to nature and don't bend their surroundings. But the king explained: "A ruler shows his people with such a garden that he has EVERYTHING under control. Even nature. I also embody the struggle with the laws, boundaries, and systems of the earth." In response to V.'s question, what her spiritual calling might include, Tiran explained, "Your friend's mind is cluttered. She wants EVERYTHING. There is nothing wrong with that, but time gets wasted. If she is so interested in spiritual topics, then she should help out at local events and make some connections there. Your friend is a connector. You, on the other hand, are not. People like YOU desperately need people like HER, because otherwise, all the knowledge that you draw down to earth would remain only with you - which of course would not be good. In addition, like every human on your planet, she should get quiet and listen for 30 to 60 minutes every day. She needs a daily meditation practice. It doesn't matter which one it is exactly, but it shouldn't be a distracting one, like yoga is too often. Also, show her this song!" [In my playlist, Sia's "The Greatest" is playing. In general, the last few minutes were filled with very appropriate songs. So King Tiran can influence music perfectly!] Continuing, he said, "I must confess that at this stage, there are still several possible outcomes of her search and situation. But here are some things that are fundamentally related to her path: Events/ campfires - safe space/ power places - connection/exchange - SPIRITUAL WOMEN'S HOUSE - a coven [there were only these keywords coming, no full sentences]. Events/ campfires - safe space/ power places - connection/exchange - SPIRITUAL WOMEN'S HOUSE - extended coven. You (Tanja) play a role on this path. Your mutual friend A. plays a role on this path." At this point, the somewhat cryptic announcement ended and I, unfortunately, had to leave as well. By now, I ask more and more often what else there might be to say. He just asked in a relaxed way, "Are you sure you'll come back tomorrow?" Me: Sure! Tiran: "Very good, then. I can let you go with peace of mind. Oh, and congratulations on the new job. I may represent the struggle against external circumstances, but this job will prove to be none."

[Day 24 - no important info.] 30.05.2020 As nice as that break yesterday was, today there was an important lesson waiting for me! My placement technique brought me to the graveyard of the elven plain. Honestly, I resisted for a moment. But of course, that didn't help. By the grey stone wall of the graveyard, Mirina was waiting for me. In the novel series, she is a so-called "shadow quencher" and the only elven woman who always wears black. To be honest, she looks a little scary. Not because of the clothes, I like to wear black myself, but because you wouldn't expect it from her kind. She was very direct and immediately announced: "You have to forget something." I resisted her for a while, I admit it. Asked what I had to forget, and yet I didn't want to hear it. So she said, "This won't be the last time you see me." Little by little I became more relaxed. After all, I know my issues and the constant ups and downs with my husband at the moment. There are always the good, the bad, and the ugly phases, I guess. I've talked to so many people about it. Yesterday even with my dad. So Mirina said: "You and your husband are both buried under more structure than you will ever know - just like every other human being. It's time you unburdened yourselves!" I know that the term 'structure' cannot actually be used like this in our language, but it does evoke a pretty apt mental image. Unfortunately, I always end up getting into a downward spiral, even if there is "only" sand in the gears of my relationship. That's one of the reasons why I said: "I fear you, although I know very well that I should not. You are to me like the 'Ghost of Christmas Yet to Come' from the Book 'Scrooge'." She replied: "You fear me because I can take thoughts and beliefs from you if I need to. Everyone fears that. Even though I am a sworn helper. And even though the things I want to be removed bury you under their weight and weigh you down, you place the highest value on them." [The songs, by the way, were terrific at this moment. "Truth is a beautiful thing" by London Grammar, and "Voice inside my head" by Amy Lee were among them]. I'm not quite sure how we got back to the topic of forgetting, but the next sentence really blew me away: M: "You forget so much so quickly so you can move on mentally. Not forgetting makes people crazy, as you know. It gets them stuck in their past." Me: "What do I have to forget?!" Mirina: "The thought is, 'I can't do it alone'. Find your balance between work, travel, and time at home. A marriage is still a marriage if one of the partners travels around for long periods of time. Most 'important men' do this without ever losing sleep over it! So why can't you? Of course, you can balance marriage and extensive travel periods. You can do all this on your own! We even sent you a human mirror the other day, which once again showed you in all clarity how stuck you are. You just shook your head, because it seemed so surreal to you!" [I had met with a not-quite-so-recently separated acquaintance who is still very much clinging to her old situation and finding it extremely difficult to leave her old environment. Unfortunately, it is true that the solutions to other people's problems are always crystal clear and (seemingly) easy to implement ... for you.] M: "Your husband said something very interesting today, did you listen carefully? He said, 'I hate change.' But you, my dear, are 100 percent change. 100 percent movement. Movement means changing places. We need you exactly this way. However, we actually mean spiritual and mental movement here, we should clarify that." [She obviously sensed my confusion, because in my past I have mostly been in a place I call home. I absolutely intend to keep it that way.] M: Your father also said that it is not good to float like a balloon without a partner as a "counterweight". For most people, that is true. But not for you. You are not part of that norm! Real change comes from those who travel to the edges of normality and tear down its edges. T: Unfortunately, our time is over, dear Mirina. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I will think long and hard about your words. M: "I should very much hope so!"

31.05.2020 Today, after having had some difficulties with my placement technique, I ended up with Lemar, the stable keeper from my Dragon Child novel series. He apologised straight away and said he wasn't very good at drawing attention to himself. But he immediately presented me with today's topic. Lemar: "What do you know about grief?" Tanja: "I understand it and I don't understand it. All at the same time." Our conversation went on, but it wasn't so much about real events in my life at the moment [such as the sudden death of an author friend and the young daughter of acquaintances, or even about Corona in general], but only about things for the book. A kind of advance notice apparently. Lemar explained to me in great detail, that there was, or is, on the plain of the Elves some sort of double bench, situated near landmarks in the forest. One person can sit on each side of this bench. However, the two Elves cannot see each other at any time due to the design of the bench! Bushes or shrubs are planted on the sides. People in mourning (but also people with an aching heart and others who seek help) come to these benches to find someone to talk to. You don't need to make an appointment, you just come there with a deep desire to talk - completely anonymously. I imagine it a bit like an open-air confessional, but both partners in the conversation are equal, of course! At that point, I asked whether any of this information should be put into the book. Lemar just said, "Just wait and see. Right now it's just information about how things were for us and how they might be in the book." T: Wouldn't it be great if this kind of bench existed on Earth? L: "Well, it wouldn't be the first thing to jump out of a book and find its way into the 'real' world." ;)

!!CAUTION: THIS POST CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR THE DRAGON CHILD SAGA!!! 01.06.2020 Today's session was chaotic. Confusing. Terrifying and brutal. I even considered quitting pretty soon after starting. Because today I was in the barracks ... With Sersh. [An Elven book character who dies in the course of the story.] We were in one of the meeting rooms there and Sersh was sitting on one of the armchairs the whole time. But he wasn't outside the story like the other Elves, he was inside the story! His entire left side was blood red and blood pulsed from the wound on his neck as if his execution had been just seconds ago. I asked him to step out of the spectacle. I tried to send him away saying, "What does not serve me, must leave me at once." He persisted. And he also did not only speak to me (Tanja). He seemed to be pushing something in-story - and with Moira, who he obsessed over so much. Moreover, immediately after my protective sentence, he proclaimed: "But I do serve you! I am the shadow of the story." [The music Sersh played was impossibly fitting: "Bleed it out" by Linkin Park, "Blood" by Sonata Arctica, "Bring me to life" by Evanescence (By the way, the name of the band means 'a thing you put on yourself so you don't bleed to death'!), and finally "Breathing" by Sonata Arctica ("I remember all the broken songs of our lives, maybe one more wrong will make it alright" / "I cannot control my life anymore")]. Sersh is so pissed. So hurt. So completely preoccupied with himself and so angry. When he couldn't hold back anymore, he asked in all seriousness: "Did Moira love me?" I know Moira's emotions in the book as well as any other character's through our close connection in writing, so I immediately said: "Yes. Yes, she loved you and she still does. You mistreated her, and yet, her stupid heart loves you." He seemed satisfied with that answer, but it was extremely emotional today. Because he was so completely immersed in the story universe. Unlike all the other characters, he didn't step out of the novel universe to talk to me. And he complained. Rightly so at this point, in my opinion. "My father has not visited my grave once since I died, did you know that? The masters [apparently he means beings who look at the past life with you] say I am missing a piece of the puzzle. That I didn't put my affairs in order before I died." After a few more hints for future scenes [spoiler removed], Sersh was gone - just as quickly as he had appeared. And I'm left with about 1,000 questions for this session.... [Be sure to read Day 28, the second half of this conversation!]

30.06.2020 I’ll admit that I didn’t channel »the right way« again, just in bed, ready to fall asleep. Nevertheless, there was fascinating information waiting for me concerning elemental beings. [If someone had told me that I would some day somewhat understand the concept and write about it, I would have declared them insane on the spot!] But first – because I constantly worry about publication – this sentence came through: "LET THE BOOK CREATE ITSELF." [I strongly feel that this has to do with the windows of opportunities for every topic and kind of work. I add to the text every day, and that is enough for now.] Our conversation then drifted to unicorns, which are also not here bodily, but according to Jormungandr fall into the ether category. And the horse [seemingly my spirit animal? Remember I hate horses] was counted to the fire beings. Well, that is puzzling! Can this be true? In every case, my list of chakras now looks more like this if you add in all the elemental beings. 1) Fire – Horses + Muses [I googled this one. It kind of makes sense, and then again, for ME the Muse showed itself speaking for the 2. chakra. Maybe she is in-between, because she definitely »has force« while, above all, she creates.] 2) Earth – Dragons 3) Water – World Serpent, mermaid 4) Love/Light – ? 5) Air – Elves 6) Ether – Unicorns 7) Pure Energy – ? Well, there are definitely still a lot of holes in this system of thought. I think there’s still a long road of learning ahead of me ...