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14.08.2020 [The harpy sits in a huge cage today.] T: Woah, I didn’t put you in there. H: Oh yes, you did. Quite often in the past. Others put me in this kind of cage, too. And I can’t always blame them for it, because outside the cage, I can wreak havoc on your life. T: But now you look rather defeated ... H: [growls] I’m sitting in a goddamn cage, what do you expect? T: Were you in there these last few days? Is that why we didn’t meet? H: No, not really. And it’s not the Minotaur’s fault, either. We get along very well, actually. T: So who was it? H: I just want you to feel this today. Feel the difference, when I’m near but unable to act. T: Suddenly I feel this big knot in my stomach. H: Very good. This is what it feels like when you draw your FIRE too far up into the wrong chakra – the third one. I burn everything there. This can go on for decades. And what do you get from it? T: An ulcer? H: For example, yes! Or gastritis. Or similar unwanted things! T: I’ll admit, I’m a little anxious to let you out of there now. H: Why? I’ve been a good partner in our conversations these last few days. We see eye to eye. T: Christians would probably say now that this was all a show you put on so that I’ll happily release you. H: Comedians. Who of us is one of the most crippling plagues of mankind, huh? T: Heh, I guess you’re right. H: Okay, let’s be fair now. MAYBE that has happened in earlier times. Maybe, in some rare cases, someone called on aspects they couldn’t control for long. BUT: this has always come with a fair warning - before someone rubbed on the proverbial Dschinni’s lamp. Additionally, your free will is and will always be your strongest tool. If you will it, you can send the sun and the moon away from the sky (only temporarily, but hey!). You only get weaker if you don’t know what you want any more. And you are weakest, when you’re not really sure any more if that being you have attracted into your life should actually leave ... ;) T: Okay, I get it. Please come out of this cage, dear harpy. But I’m warning you: Don’t tamper with my life. [The cage explodes and the harpy steps out.] H: That’s so much better. T: Everything feels the same as it did 10 seconds ago. But the knot in my stomach is gone. Everything seems to flow more freely again. H: What would I gain from scaring you with a demonstration of truly destructive anger? Or from influencing your life in another negative way? Like all the other aspects, I need you to be in a stable environment and an overall good situation, so you can do your work! T: That makes sense. But tell me, where were you these last three days? H: Just like the Elves, I’m not reachable every single moment in time. Everything else is a myth. Remember the »windows of opportunity«. You also didn’t go out of your way to be on time these last few days, I’ll have to add. Neither did you keep still for long. T: Touché. I’ll try to do better. But now: Are there really Dschinnis on Earth??! H: [grins diabolically] Well, wouldn’t you just love to know that. The Dschinni is like your »Sams« [popular German children’s book character resembling a child with a pig’s nose that can grant wishes for every blue dot on its face]. The Dschinni as a legend only shows you that you permanently wish for the wrong things out of the wrong reasons, using ill-fitting words.

13.08.2020 After two days without any connection, I met someone today – but it wasn’t the harpy! I had been worried that, for the third time in a row, there would be no yield to my project, so I deliberately opened up more possibilities and invited a broader range of energies/beings. Then it happened: I got the strong feeling that someone or something was sitting at my bedside. A snow-white being. Thin and with hanging shoulders. It had the head of a bull and its horns, too. A Minotaur. But he was not any sort of monstrous or big, but a tired, worked-down version of a bull-man. He communicated his name as ›Belarus‹. [To be honest, I only vaguely remembered that there is a city or something similar called Belarus. I’ve never been good at geography. That the country called »white Russia« in German really calls itself Belarus and that ›bela‹ means white? That there are severe protests and problems in said country right now? All of that I had to read up on the next day.] I got the strong feeling that this being was at the end of its rope, so I gingerly put a hand on his shoulder and sent some energy over. When this was done, he finally spoke [telepathically, as they all do]: B: »I am a being of anger, just like the harpy.« T: She’s not going to show herself today, is she? B: No. [A bird appears on his arm. Not an eagle, but beautiful. Then again, it does not seem »real« in the same way he does.] B: This one is cute, but it sprang from your imagination. It is not imbued with consciousness. T: Still, it is pretty. B: Very true. Thank you for this burst of energy. I was close to dissolving, but I cannot give up just yet. I can’t allow myself to leave just yet. I need to hold on a little longer. T: I’m getting the feeling that you do very important work. I’m sorry that I cannot do more for you. B: You do a lot right now. And when you meet others like me – the scattered and tired aspects – help them, too. You know, there are not only dogs and other animals that need rescuing from an increasingly cruel world. T: I will try to look for them. Could you please help me with another minor thing? B: Tell me. T: See, I started this thing today, Instagram? B: Yes. T: It would be really great if some people actually saw what I posted there. I want to spread your messages far and wide! B: I will try to help out. Whenever I work towards your goal, you will see my picture. The picture of a white, horned creature of some kind. T: Thank you so much. I’m happy I met you. B: You will meet many more like me in your life. T: I can’t wait!

10.08.2020 [in Ruhstorf a.d.Rott, tiny bavarian village] T: [slouches on a single bed in a bavarian guest house.] H: Sit upright when you meet me, honey. T: I’m sweaty, I’m tired and I feel double-crossed. Still, you’re right. H: Do you see how – again – you’re not permitted your anger? Nobody bothered to get you a room, but please, don’t get bitchy now! Bitchiness doesn’t »suit you«, men say. I say: »A shot glass full of rage suits every woman.« T: You’re so right. I’m deeply disappointed to be invited and then forgotten. Ugh! H: And you have every right to be. But now the dust has settled and you two [my roommate S. and I] will make the most of it. T: Before we completely lose ourselves in my little life: What’s the most important lesson for today, dear harpy? H: It’s that a healthy amount of anger is a part of every life. It should absolutely be there! It’s just like that nice lady [Karla McLaren] said in her book »Language of Emotions«: See the anger coming, acknowledge it, and then channel it into your aura. From there it can signal others »You have kindled my raging fire – be VERY careful what you do now!« Anger and rage show you, that a line was crossed. This, too, you learned from that book. Years ago. You can also learn a great deal about anger from the stranger you share a room with tonight. She’s got a lot of fire in her aura – and dear god, have the aspects given her reasons for that. But she conquered the rage. She uses it. What nobody tells you is that you can eventually ride on anger, just like you can ride on a young horse. You can train it like a bird of prey. But: never can you kill me, if I’m already there. Whoever comes to you and tells you that he/she has no anger whatsoever, they’re lying. It’s as clean and simple as that. Real anger? The kind somebody has lived through and domesticated? This anger you can see in their eyes – as rock-hard strength when everything went well; or as hungry fire, when something went wrong. T: [noise ringing in ears] Who sends me this tinnitus? H: These are difficulties to adapt. It’s white noise in your »radio« called hearing. It means nothing much. T: I’m sorry, I can’t really concentrate today. The situation is less than ideal, let’s leave it at that. Let’s pick up the topic of tinnitus soon, okay? H: Sure, I’ll put it on our to-do list. ;) T: You’re the best. [Sia’s »The Greatest« begins to play.] T: Thanks for that song. I really needed that right now! [The harpy approaches my back and spreads her black wings. It feels as if she gave them to me!] T: WOW!!! H: Only this much for now. I can’t lend you more strength right now. If I gave you my wings permanently – or even worse, if you took them from me – then you would turn into a demon by definition. Did you know that? T: I didn’t. I thought there are no demons?! H: There are no demons – the way you typically think of them. But humans have possessed the insolence (and the power) to approach aspects like me and take what defines us – my wings, for example. Although, from EVERY myth or fairytale in the world, you know how that will end. Spoiler alert: THAT WILL NOT GO WELL!!

09.08.2020 [The harpy brought us to the Elven plain again but into the kitchen of the monastery.] H: Every human works toward completing seven things in their life, did you know that? T: No, that sounds fascinating. Go on! H: Humans have seven (main) chakras. Each one of them aspires to its highest, utterly ideal state of being. To the highest frequency attainable in this lifetime. That’s why seven is a holy number. Your base chakra for example could long for the absolute tribal love of an African village (Ubuntu). Or your throat chakra could long to speak out one very specific truth. Very often, your emotions will tell you, that you have reached one of your ultimate goals. It could be 40.000 people cheering for you and the euphoria this entails. It could be the wonderful feeling of loving three people you have met with for sexual pleasure exactly the same – universally. This list is absolutely endless. But: only ONE of the chakras handles the topic of romantic love between two people ... and yet you’re constantly being told – especially in recent decades – that a successful, highly romantic partnership between one man and one woman is the ultimate, only goal in your life. From the moment you enter a marriage (and especially a little later, with some kids), you will get puzzled looks from others if you don’t feel fulfilled. Others will ask: »What? You STILL want more? What’s more to want? You have love and a family!« You immediately see the doctrine men and women are under. While the woman is told: »But you have a sweet family!« the man will be told: »But you have that great job!« I can only repeat myself here: Everybody strives for SEVEN things! I’ll admit that most of these goals are not consciously accessible to you, because they vibrate at a very high frequency. But it’s not important to consciously know them all the time. Especially the uppermost chakras in your head work towards their goals subconsciously. Which means: while you sleep. ;) T: Awesome! Finally, something in life that just works on its own. :D H: Heh. Yes. Seemingly. T: Oh, oh. I hear a »but«. H: No. Then again, this concept can explain why you sometimes awake terribly sad or euphoric or dog-tired. This is the reason. Something in the otherworld didn’t go as planned, or was difficult, or worked out great. This is also the reason why you need nine hours of sleep while others only need five. One is not better than the other, your goals and your work just differ. T: Dear harpy, unfortunately, our time’s up. But let’s not forget this topic, okay? H: Fine. Over the next few days, just play with this and try to find out some things people around you might strive for. T: I’ll try!

08.08.2020 T: [thinks about Superman and similar beings.] H: The sad truth is: »superb« beings like these exist literally on every corner, you just never see them. If you really knew where to look for all the mythical spirits and beings, you would in every sense of the word be a powerful, blessed human being. Just because in days gone by, someone said »go there and meet the fairies«, they never meant visible, touchable beings. [The harpy changes the white matrix and we sit in the library of the Elves.] T: I love this place. H: I know. T: So, should we start to set up little fairy houses in our gardens again? Should we sacrifice to them again? Honey and flowers, or at least a few drops of water? H: Why don’t you do it the other way around? Why do you want to put YOUR things on a little plate, wishing us well with them? We know that you wish us well and that (and when) you think of us. We know it the moment the thought crosses your mind. No. Be smart and put an EMPTY plate in a nice and hidden spot, so WE may put things in it. So we can signal you, should the need arise. That way you would have to find fewer feathers along your way. ;) T: Ha! That’s ingenious! I’ll do that. I already know the perfect spot in my garden. H: You know, in earlier days these things were simply a given. Everybody knew where the interesting spots were and how they had to be maintained. Every pilgrimage started out with the strong wish to experience a place with very special energies, known for helping with topic x, y, or z. For communication and wisdom, you visited the Elves and the Fairies. For seeing something more clearly and working on your rage, you climbed up to the eagle’s nest. Do you recognize the pattern? T: Oh yes. H: By the way: Yes, the Elves »take you away«, just like the legends say. But they also bring you (your soul) back, of course. [grins] You should know – don’t they take you away very often? T: Yes ... and it’s fantastic! H: My point exactly. T: Dear harpy, our time for today is up. H: That’s okay. I’ve delivered this nice little snack for your mind to feed on, that’s all I wanted. :)

07.08.2020 Yesterday, there was no connection to be had, but today I knew right from the start that the harpy was willing to get some work done. Why? Because of my playlist! First, »Lionheart« von Blind Guardian [»Speak to me! It all would be easier....«], then Sia’s »Burn The Pages« [»Don’t worry, don’t worry, I’m here by your side. Yesterday is dead and gone« ...] But she didn’t actually start talking to me. T: Okay, if the next song is THAT fitting, too, then I know you’re doing this. So go on, dear harpy, time to outdo yourself! The next song was Linkin Park’s »Talking To Myself«! I burst into laughter right on the spot. Then I began writing. T: Well played. [Blind Guardians »Sadly Sings Destiny« plays.] H: The saddest figure in all the worlds must surely be destiny She does your bidding, you know? She lets you go into harm’s way. She lets you walk through fire .. crying every day. T: This is a beautiful poem, it even rhymes. But you seem weak today. H: I am. I spent this portion of energy. It is decaying. [»Till Death Do Us Part« von Sonata Arctica plays.] T: That’s why you didn’t answer yesterday? H: Yes. Honestly, I don’t know how you do it. [She smiles sadly.] This thing called »existing«? In body? In story? This is so exhausting. T: So spirits actually die ... H: Yes. Every day. That tiny part of energy they separated from themselves to talk to you spends its energy and dissolves. Like wax in a candle. [Wir sind Helden – »Ein Elefant für dich« plays. The heartbreaking song is about a woman who promises her terminally ill little brother that she will »carry him over the river (Jordan) like a tall and strong elephant when the time has come.«] H: The snake showed you this concept. It is part of All-That-Is. Nobody says that the energy of the candle is completely gone. That is indeed impossible. And there will be a million candles made the very next day. But one speck of spirit, especially the ones you can see and hear? Yes, they »die«. T: In this song, there is a promise. To be strong until the end. I want to give you the same promise. I want you and the other aspects that enrich my life to know, that I see you. I acknowledge your presence and I am ever grateful for it. I can be here for you, should you ever have the need. H: Thank you, that is indeed very honourable of you. You know, most people go through their lives, completely ignore the specks of spirit on the side of the road and ask themselves where God is and why he doesn’t fulfil their wishes. [»I am a man. In the grand scheme of things, only minutes have passed since I crawled from the sea ... what a wonderful gift my mind is. But why am I using it to destroy this beautiful planet – my ONLY home?« Sonata Arctica] H: The truth is: Spirit cuts little pieces from itself EVERY DAY to protect you and communicate with you. This is the fact you choose not to see with almost malicious precision. I don’t want to be too hard on you. The world religions kept you in fear for thousands of years, until there was nothing left of this sweet, childlike faith you used to have. But in earnest: Be thankful more often. Acknowledge, that there is a BATTALION of spirits walking next to you every step of the way, HELPING you – if you only let it do its work. If you only listen to them whispering. T: I don’t understand this! Why can’t these little specks just return to the other side of the veil and regenerate? H: Have you ever returned an old, burned-down candle to the manufacturer? T: No. H: A candle cannot be made whole again in that sense. Because there is no container to hold new wax – should you have some. And even with all the wax in the world, you don’t get a real candle without a wick. It is simply not possible to revitalize a candle until it is the EXACT SAME candle you already used up. THIS EXACT candle is gone. But don’t worry: Where that candle came from, a billion more are made every day, ready for bringing light into your life. And of course, as a higher form of consciousness, All-that-is can split pieces from itself for all eternity without ever being any less than it was before.

05.08.2020 [I started out late today – past 10 p.m. Because of that, I had some problems getting into my meditation without falling asleep.] T: [like a mantra]: I’m trying, I’m trying, I’m trying. H: [smiles] Trying is the difference between ›I care‹ and ›I don’t‹. T: Ha, that’s great! [The Harpy fills my head with bits and pieces for the Dragonchild novels.] H: I’m showing you the angriest new scenes for the book. Small wonder, huh? T: Absolutely, thanks! Can you also help me with the shorter novel? Ghomon & Gorgonn? It’s YOUR book after all, it’s about an elf with a very active harpy! H: At the moment, there are more important things. But yes, eventually I’ll help you with publishing this one, too. T: The challenge is the more important thing, right? H: Well, that’s not a secret anymore. ;) T: It’s fascinating, how much everybody around me IMMEDIATELY jumped on the bandwagon with this project. The filmmaker, my parents, my more spiritual friends ... a few days ago I even thought about approaching Anna Katmore’s publisher with this project. After all, they did buy the rights to the book that kickstarted all of this. :) H: Do it, then. The worst thing they could possibly say is no. [Sonata Arctica’s »Losing my insanity« begins to play.] T: Hm, you really select some outstanding music, no doubt about that. Sometimes, I feel like a »crazy« life really is the norm and everything else comes after that. Kids for example are born »crazy« by our society’s very definition. They can still see and hear the spirits, they trust everyone, and so much more. Only after a few years we put all the »childish« things aside and believe (or we’re told) that a life within the norm is best for us. Then, many years later, we realise that we have nothing left. No spirits, no miracles, no ability to wonder or wander, no trust. H: This is the time when a very natural rage sets in once again. And rightfully so! All your life you're being told: »Behave logically and normal, then your life will be GOOD. Will be SUCCESSFUL. But no, it is not good. It’s empty! And even if that success everybody told you about actually came ... that, too, feels empty! Comfortable, but empty. Do you see that you simply can’t win this »game of normality«? IT’S NOT POSSIBLE. [Timer goes off.] H: Sleep now. It’s very late. We’ll talk tomorrow.

04.08.2020 [I happened to find a great image for the Harpy cover today. I was looking for something completely different, of course...] T: So? Do you like the cover art? H: Oh yeah, it’s going to be a strong picture. I also like the website [CreativiKEY, dormant side project]. [The harpy looks sad or downcast.] T: What’s going on, my dear? You’re putting on interesting songs today: ›I’m only human‹ by Rag’n’Bone Man and ›The Arrival‹ by OF COLOURS. H: Did you listen? She sings: ›It’s not the mountain, we conquer but ourselves.‹ I’m the one that makes you climb the mountain. Hope, too. Hope is THE motivator of all. But only if you don’t know what’s at the top. If you know for a fact that your nemesis is sitting on your throne up there, then I am your best friend on the mountain. Your most loyal companion. I am there for you when you can’t muster up any hope. Hope is my natural counterpart, the yin to my yang. Knowing this also makes it easier to fathom why a society or group of people from whom you have taken away hope (for salvation, for God, for improvement of their situation) slides into bottomless anger. In this case, this group sees that the mountaintop is empty and that the incredibly difficult (but advertised!) way up there is pointless. T: Oh, wow. You just gave me a great idea for the Dragonchild, thanks! H: Our time is up today anyway. See you tomorrow? T: You can count on it!

03.08.2020 [To set the mood, the songs "Wild hearts" by Pink and "Everybody knows" by Sigrid are playing today. I love both of them very much!] T: Good music today. H: You're welcome. These are good songs. Less whiny. But do you realize that while the lyrics are quite angry, the music as a whole holds back? That women, in particular, are not allowed to make angry art? Women should be tame and leave the war to the men. And what are you left with if anger is not an option? Only apathy, dear women. Even today, when women have EVERY reason to really kick a few asses - and some of them are finally doing so - your anger is being talked down AGAIN! You are supposed to pass it over, please. Omit it. Bury it. Develop beyond it. Where is the energy balance in that? I can tell you, it is missing. After 10,000 years without rights, women can now vote and work in offices, but you still have no right to anger. Isn't that sad? Oh, and because I know it sits on your tongues: Of course there is the male equivalent. Nurturing and peacemaking are the things that men are principally not allowed to do. Where is the balance there, if one always has to be peaceful and the other is not allowed to be? T: Explain to me how we can harness anger energetically. H: In our novel [Ghomon and Gorgonn] I explained to you that anger will only be useful to you when you integrate it into your shield, that is, into your aura. For that, of course, you must first stop resisting. Defending yourself against anger is incredibly exhausting (do you notice the connection to women and fatigue illnesses? More on that later). When anger is finally allowed to flow around you and through you, the power I mentioned earlier is released. This power can literally catapult you forward and leave your enemies or barricades burning in your path. You are 100 percent in action - and in appearance, because it is impossible not to end up in the limelight with this energy. The more you practice, the easier you go from anger to the reward of practice. I am the ultimate aspect, your BEING makes possible, for DOING and MOVING are unmistakable signs of being/life. Anger IS. You can always debate whether you are really in love or really speaking your truest word, but no one can deny or misjudge me when they meet me. I burn too painfully and shine too brightly for that. I light your torch. But whether you light your way with it or burn down your house ... that is up to you. And if there is one thing I should wish for the future of mankind, it would be guidance on how to deal with me when you meet me. T: Thank you, that was great! Tell me, this conversation ... H: ... must be published, yes. Absolutely. I am the red book in the series. Part three and yet topic number one, as I like it [grins]. T: I'll keep it in mind, thank you. See you tomorrow? H: Sure. I'm having a lot of fun with this.

02.08.2020 [While getting into it, my thoughts traveled to my own deck of oracle cards, with the best quotes from World Serpents and Elves ...] H: Well, if you want something done, do it yourself! ;) T: Say, which chakra are you? Number 1? H: Yes. Very much yes. I am an emotional flamethrower. I have wings to travel WHEREVER I please and claws to take you with me. T: Whoa, wait! You take humans with you? H: Yes, but similar to your thoughts about Jormungandr, you think about me all wrong. Being taken away by the claws of a bird of prey is NOT the detrimental thing your culture would have you believe. Children’s books and nature documentaries show you pictures of terrible, insane harpies (Ronja the Robber's Daughter / Astrid Lindgren) or almost apathetic birds carrying away fish. The lore says: Let the harpy out of its cage and lose your life and/or sanity. [This picture is painted in the Last Unicorn, too, for example.] ONLY Tolkien of all people understood the concept of the kind of mercy a winged ›monster‹ [huge eagle] could bestow on you. In his lore, the giant eagle is – finally – an ally. I can be an ally for you – and a very powerful one. You just should not make yourself at home in my nest, metaphorically speaking, because who wants to reside in a castle of wrath on the inside? That’s not what balance is about, and I have never challenged the snake on this. T: I’m surprised about the start of this round of channeling. Speaking to you is so effortless. I met you so quickly and easily. Why did you not speak to me sooner? H: The disease [Corona] brought down several dams of mankind, creating an almost biblical flood of knowledge and information in this 21st century. And you, Tanja, are also right when you say that you’re fighting a silent, weaponless World War III – on SO MANY more levels than most people observe. If you DO consider an apocalypse to be accompanied by four »evils« (four bringers of balance), then I would be one of them. The Bible talks of war, famine, death, and pestilence. [I read up on this. Actually, in the original versions, the word JUSTICE was more prevalent!]. H: Do you understand? War brings a new balance of power. Famine brings a new balance of nourishment. Death brings new life to ideas and Pestilence brings ultimate equality. Of course, this is an old concept. It’s just the TELLTALE signs on how to spot if you’re in an apocalypse. Because let’s be honest, humans can only wrap their heads around the fact that they are right inside an apocalypse if it hits them of the head. Some not even then. Oh, and by the way: YES, anger runs rampage among those that believe they can lose something (other than their health and life and loved ones). That which they have borrowed – riches and earth-wrecking freedoms – must be given back now, and some children prove to be stubborn.

01.08.2020 As I had loosely discussed with the World Serpent, I have taken July off from channeling and get back on track today. However, I have been receiving more or less subtle signs for several days now who my next "sparring partner" could be. For many days I have been finding feathers in my path - especially from birds of prey. (And I don't live in the wilderness or something!) The day before yesterday the guessing game was finally over ... the harpy showed herself. [I have known the harpy from my "Dragonchild" novels. There, she already played a part. However, in the books she's an actress, playing the ego – a self-righteous bitch. It's important to note that the aspect, the actress, is not egotistical. She is not her role, just like all my other teachers that happened to end up in a fictional story.] As always, I put on some good music, and one of the first songs was "Dynamite" by Sigrid – a very, very sad song that routinely makes me cry. Harpy: Waah, waah, waaah. All this howling and sobbing! Tanja: Hey, I like that song. H: I don't know the frequency of self-pity, it's not mine. Or have you ever seen a sad, self-conscious or depressed harpy? However, I do like that she sings, "Know that I am dynamite." T: So if sadness is not your thing, what is your frequency? What do you stand for? H: Anger. Anger gives you strength. It gives you the kick to get into action. I am the end of all apathy. T: Are you by any chance that eagle figure that, according to Norse legend, argues with the dragon- or serpent-like being under the world tree - or with Jormungandr? H: Yes and no. The world serpent represents balance, but balance often means not acting and letting God/ coincidence/ others decide. I, on the other hand, basically want to move and act. This is indeed where Jormungandr and I disagree. T: If there is a non-moving, balanced-out state and moving forward, then there should also be a third force that moves things backward? H: A backward movement is also movement. Think of a stone. It's lying down, or it's rolling. There is no third state. T: Thank you, now it makes sense! Are you THE harpy, then? The one from my dragon child books? H: I am the concept of anger, yes. I am a pure urge, an impulse. Lately you humans have often been hearing that you need to make your peace with the "lower vibrations," and I'm a part of that. However, those who demonize anger do not understand that I am a protector. I am currently driving your young people, whom you are robbing of the air to breathe - and I don't mean that proverbially! Anger protects your sore spot. It's a watchdog. And a very effective one at that. I - the personified anger - appear when there is a weak point in you, which should have been eliminated long ago. I protect your most thickly encrusted issue. The completely stuck fear. BUT: You immediately realize that I cannot be seriously useful if I turn outward (against the aggressor). In the immediate moment, I can make sure that the sore spot is not addressed further, but in the long run, of course, this is not a tactic that allows for real progress. You need to STOP FIGHTING ME and use me for what I am. A weapon. Yes, even against others, but mostly against stagnation in the self. Anger and rage are not your enemies - if you turn them from guards to personal trainers! An example: Imagine that you are currently not satisfied with your body weight. T: I don't need much imagination for that ... H: (grins) All the better. Now: if someone says something mean about your shape, I can come to the rescue that very minute and make you utter a tremendously juicy counter-comment. T: (grins) Well, that doesn't sound like the Christian thing to do. H: Well, duh! Where has the doctrine of "turn the second cheek" gotten you in 2000 years, huh? T: Touché. H: There you go. Back to the steps: as soon as the attacker is stopped cold, the inner process starts - IF you had secretly seen the need for action for a long time - and if nothing is disturbed in your natural anger process, which unfortunately is extremely common in your world. The topic gnaws at you. The next time you want to spend a whole day lounging on the couch, you get angry at yourself and your goddamn laziness. So you put on shoes and go for a walk or a run. Because really, you always liked that, didn't you? If everything works well, I'll give you more power than you would need for ANY humanly possible change in the universe. And that's why my very own sayings are: "Where there's a will, there's a way." and "The power of one can move a mountain." See you tomorrow.

04.07.2020 Today I wanted to do it right. Really concentrate. I wanted to give my very best. And I was rewarded. In my mind's eye, Jormungandr came slithering over the field next to my house, came nearer and nearer, and seemed to call me to him. I traveled there in my mind and looked at him for a long time. J: Do you understand now? How magic works? It is like learning to read. A skill that will open up a whole universe of possibilities. T: I do. I understand. J: Everything you desire can indeed be attracted into your life by magic. You only need the second sight. Now you understand that fire can take shape. That water talks and that patterns are the most prevalent form of letters from god. Sticky notes, if you will. Little reminders. When you see a figure dancing in a fire, it is not because you have gone crazy. It is because to YOU it should just now speak of dancing. Spirit devotes a lot of care, energy and devotion into this communication. "Coincidence" is only the most "IN YOUR FACE" form of these messages, but by far not the only one. And the sender of the message awards greatly those who WILL (not can) become aware of them. AWARENESS practices are not only a trend rushing by. Awareness is absolutely NEEDED, if you (as a species) want to survive this millennium. I told you again and again about the 40 minutes and now you need to tell others. T: Will I see you again after tomorrow? What about the books you want me to produce? J: What about them? You will them into existence. And the reward will be yours. T: Hm, I've heard that one before. I thought the Muse was going to be my breakthrough. J: Only your ego thought so because the Muse is a relatively 'light' read. But it's not done yet, so it cannot award you fully right now. A bucket of water still filling up from a tab cannot be carried home yet. You are bound to stand there and wait for it. Energetically, an unfinished series of books is quite similar. It yearns to be done. Your problem is not the Muse not showing up at your doorstep. She would. Your problem is having invited MANY sources with your artist's prayer and now going back on your promise. That is not only unwise, but it is also very unfair of you. YOU wished for a state of writing similar to what the Muse did – and the Elves and I delivered. Now – because what you write down here is very far away from fiction – you don't want to share your newfound wisdom. But you'll have to eventually, and you will. The Elves made it very easy for you, that's why they went first. Of me, you were quite afraid at first, but we came closer over the last month. And I was – like I said – only 'one step up'. Go and have your break now. [Summer break at school, holiday.] Take July off. But in August, look out for the next minor god within your reach. It will reveal itself to you. For it, too, has a lot to say and offer. T: Will I speak to you once more tomorrow? J: No, not very likely. I would come, but your mind is going to be very preoccupied again. T: I will still do my best then! J: Good. Day 30 05.07.2020 Just as Jormungandr predicted, I was too tired to channel today. That's just life - and a typical RV holiday. ;) After taking July off, I talked to the aspect of RAGE in August. And believe me, even if rage is not really an issue for you, it's a fascinating read. You can read the start of our conversation here!